Two years ago, after 17 hours of labour, at 5:17 PM, my
perfect 8.1 pound gorgeous baby boy graced this planet with his presence. The
world’s been a better and brighter place since then.
With his eyes wide open, clean as if he’d just had a bath,
and a head full of hair neatly pulled to one side, he was ready for a
photoshoot since day 1.
I remember our first night at the hospital, when he laid next
to me while I watched him sleep. I felt the rhythm of his breathing. I gazed at
the precious swoop of his nose, the soft flutter of his eyelashes, the length
of his fingers, the curves of his cheeks. I soaked in all the little details of
him.
I blinked, and it’s 2 years already. My baby boy turns two
today, and my heart just keeps exploding with fireworks. Every time he smiles,
every time his mischievous eyes twinkle. Even in the wee hours of night, I have
nothing but love in my heart for his little human.
I delight in him, more than I delight in anyone. I never
thought that this is what parenting would feel like. Of course there are many,
many, many, MANY moments of frustration too. Of boredom, of inconvenience, or
of fear and doubt. The road hasn’t been easy. But we, as a family, have grown
together to find a great equalizer. And I will take some (not all) credit for
that.
Continuing the tradition, I’m writing him a letter on his
birthday, in a hope that he’ll read it someday. If you missed the 1st birthday
letter, you can read it here: First birthday letter to Ansh
My dear love puddle Ansh,
So, here we are, another year later. In some ways this year
went by too slow, and in some it went by in a flash. The second year was so
much different than the first. By the time you turned one, you weren’t walking,
much less doing more than tripod crawl. But all the changed just after you turned
1. You became an Olympic speed crawler, before we knew it you were walking,
letting yourself into all our rooms, reaching on top of our counters, throwing
balls for us to fetch, and getting into all kinds of trouble, including but not
limited to bumping your gorgeous forehead at every turn. We also moved into a
new city right after your first birthday, and your nani (grandma) was here to babysit
you while mama and papa were house hunting and busy settling down.
What hasn’t changed? You are still the most talkative person
I’ve ever known. Not the most talkative kid – no, the most talkative human
being on the planet. You go to sleep talking, and you wake up finishing the
conversation you started. Not that we understand 50% of what you are saying.
Your level of excitement is like nothing I have ever
witnessed. Your dad and I, as well as everyone who knows you, get a very big
kick out of how you can be excited about seeing a bus hundred times a day.
Around 22 months, the tantrums went into full effect, but
that was to be expected. Let’s just say, you know what you want, and when and
how you want it. And when it gets difficult at times (mostly for us), your dad
and I just let you finish your tantrum, maybe roll on the floor of a grocery
store, or a toy store, cry, yell, and sometimes we take videos, and laugh. We
have decided to not let it embarrass us, but rather laugh it off. You’ll laugh
at it one day when you see these videos too (or maybe you’ll just boycott us).
You are one of a kind, Ansh - and I’m not just saying that
because you’re my son. You are so much fun to be around; your passion for life
is contagious. You are so loved by people all around the world. You already
have quite a fan following. I can’t even imagine what’ll happen when you’re a
teenager. I don’t think I’ll be able to handle all the attention you’ll get.
I’ll never know if it’s true or not, but I believe that even
if you weren’t my kid I’d still want to play hide and seek with you, throw
balls with you – just hang out with you! You’re that much fun to be around.
No wonder, for your birthday, your loved ones are sending you
hand written letters from all across the world. Remember, when you grow up,
these hand written letters will be much more of a treasure than you can
imagine. I’ll keep them safe with me till you are capable of not chewing them
away.
Your birthday party yesterday was a blast. We had it at a homeless
shelter with a bunch of kids who might not have as much, but find happiness in
so little. All those kids had a delightful time at your party and thanked you
so many times for your wonderful gesture. It was very emotional. How else are
you supposed to feel when people celebrate, cherish and marvel at the love of
your life? You are already a giver, my love, and I want you to remember that
there’s no religion bigger than “LOVE”. And that’s how I wish to raise you. Your
religion is Love.
So what’s next for you, my angel? The road ahead will be
filled with trips to places like Disney World, Europe, Australia, India, and
the Caribbean. Your education experience will open up a world of opportunities,
and you will take advantage of whatever speaks to your heart. Our family unit
will give you the security that every kid wants and deserves. Your challenges
will help shape you into the amazing man I know you will become. If the first
two years of your life serve as any indication of what the next two will bring,
I have to just push my little bit of sadness aside and embrace the part of me
that’s thrilled about your growth. As much as I may wish for my baby to remain
a baby, I know you can’t be baby forever. You have to learn and explore.
Your spark inspires me in ways that I will always be indebted
for. I’m in awe of you. Why? Because you’re better than me in every way – much better.
Funnier, smarter, more open, more intuitive, braver. I have days when I can’t
believe that your dad and I created this human being who seems to be better
parts of both of us.
I am the luckiest and proudest mom of the most beautiful and
hilarious two-year-old. Everything I do in life, I do for you.
(Please remember that the next time you throw a fit, or a toy car at my head.)
There will be times in your life that you will probably hate me for nudging you
or keeping you from doing something you want but please know that I have the
best intentions.
My message to you on your second birthday is
simply this: You are awesome. Your boundless energy, your sweet demeanor, your
creative spirit – it all comes together to make you a truly remarkable little
human being.
I feel privileged to be your mama. From a
parent’s perspective, it doesn’t get any cooler than that.
As
you journey into the next year—which I’m sure will be the tremendous twos, with
some terrible thrown in for good measure—I’m filled with anticipation to
watch you become more and more uniquely you. My heart will be right there, growing alongside you, my
love spreading to cover every new inch of you.
I love you, my awesome son.
Love,
Mom and Dad